A Moment of Grace

Ok, this is my second attempt at this post. Why? Because the post before was absolutely horrible. Anyway. I have an undieing love for the instant messaging program called skype. I find it an absolutely amazing program and I hold it close to my heart (just like some people are with their Ipads). It is an amazing program that allows people to instant message, video chat, audio chat, and send files with ease. It is like the better version of MSN, and AIM, in my personal opinion. It is completely amazing. But alas my undieing love might actually come to an end. This is because the newest beta version of skype came out recently, and I must say I highly dislike it. It is in the danger zone.

What is the danger zone you might ask? Well. In Grace talk the danger zone is when they start to take away the different features in which I love that the program has. Example, AOL aim, I would use often, but once it got to the stages of having one instant message window for all. I hated it and it became danger zone. I switched to ichat soon after, which was a relief but sadly aim for me is no more.

Anyway Skype is changing a lot of things, for the worse and for the better. I think that the skype people need to realize that the old version of skype is completely awesome and there should still be the classic version of mac skype, that has the newest features like group video chatting. Otherwise this will really bother me. I highly dislike not being able to change the size of my conversation windows, as well as having my contacts on the same window as my chats. I feel like the program is slipping more away from ease of use but to simplicity which causes usage problems. It might be because I am such an active user, and I dislike massive change in my programs.

I feel mean to skype today, to be honest though. Because I just sit there and am sending them more and more response things which are small things, but then I connect a small thing I dislike to another thing that isn't working which causes a big problem. I just feel like I am harassing the skype employees.

But it is their job. I honestly just wish they would hire me to test out the programs because I am a teenager still, I am able to change things for the better. I know how teenagers think and we are the future. If you want your programs to flourish get the teenagers involved. Have them honestly test out the products, because we are the future and we are the ones who will eventually cause things like AIM to go out of fad and no longer used.

After reading the books, and watching 2 of the 3 movies currently out. I have officially decided my opinion of Twilight:
Twilight is the worst piece of crap I have ever read and the biggest waste of my time. Anyone who is a serious twilight fan makes me shake my head with disgust.
Ok. So first if you are one of those few who have not read or watch twilight please pat yourself on the back right now. Second I will give you a short explanation from a bias point of view what happens in twilight. Bella( Described as a girl with mousy hair and a olive coloured skin tone who is very self contentious, not very popular, and insecure with everything about herself.) moved in with her Dad after her mother marries another man. While going to school she meets the Cullens( A family of vampires.). The Cullens have a "son" in the family named Edward( Described in the book as a man who has a subtle beauty to him with pale skin that some women would have died for in the 1800's.) Edward at first doesn't like Bella because the smell of her blood taunts him, and being a vampire he wants to suck her blood. Eventually they fall into a petty teenage "love" where they want to be together but because he is dangerous to her he leaves her to be alone. While alone Bella falls again for another "beautiful" boy named Jacob( Who happens to be a werewolf.). From there on there is a continue of who she is going to pick, Jacob or Edward. In the end she chooses Edward, he gets her preggo and as the baby slowly kills her other vampires go after her life, and when she gives birth Edward changes her into a Vampire and the baby survives and they live happily ever after.


My reasons for highly disliking the books:
The plot takes advantage of the teen girls who believe they are in love with a strange and different man. It also takes advantage of those who are depressed, suicidal, and immature girls who believe that telling people their "suicidal" thoughts will get them attention.
The book is slightly well written except for the fact that the whole book needs to have ... in... between... each... word... because... that is the impression they author is apparently trying to convey with the movie. The book though does not have any actual plot.. wait back that up, it does have a plot. But the plot takes the thoughts of a teenager, who wants to have sex with a vampire and a werewolf, and explodes it into sparkling men, and girls who will have adrenalin rushes to imagine that the one they love cares. The whole book gives the impression that nobody is going to like Bella but as a matter of fact she has an admirer by the 5th chapter of the book.
The book overall does not make sense and the 4th book just makes me want to go throw up with how she becomes pregnant and then the baby is slowly killing her. I just find that screwed up.

The reasons why I didn't like the movie:
First of all, all that has been spoken of about the plot for the movies/books still stands. I don't like it, and it takes advantage of young girls and their innocent minds. Second, I absolutely hate that the characters descriptions from the book took a complete turn and they just said "screw the book we just want people who are ugly." Robert Patterwhatshisname should not be in the roll of Edward. My first reason is he does not look like he is suppose to, and my second reason is that he looks like a foot. You all know this opinion is completely true and you are even nodding your head that he does in fact look like a foot.

Bella also does not look like a mousy girl with olive skin tone. I don't understand. Whoever did casting for this movie did a absolutely horrible job.
Another thing that really bothered me about the movie was that randomly when Bella would be standing there she would get out of breath. Maybe that is just bad acting, or it is what she was directed to do, but I feel like she should have at least ran somewhere before you got out of breath. Another complaint I had of the movie was that for some reason nobody, but I believe the dad, could reply like a normal person. I have a feeling the script was written like this... because... that... is... the... only... way... they... could... have... had... a... 2... second... delay... between... each... word............................ The movie got really annoying when you would sit there for what a normal conversation would take 2 minutes, took the movie 10 minutes to portray. I don't understand it at all. It still makes no sense to me.


I have a few more reasons I highly dislike twilight, but alas I am extremely tired and I am going to sleep. I might add more later when I am in a ranting mood.

So I'm going to Greece. Exciting huh?! I am really excited to go but I have a few things I need to think over before I go on my trip. Most of the preliminary thoughts are already taken care of, this is because I was suppose to go to Greece in April, but alas I could not because a freaking volcano erupted. You see all that ash? That is what stopped me from boarding my flight and going on my merry way to a different country. Away from small town Maine. Anyway!

I already have figured a few things out, which would be camera memory cards, and batteries, and even converters for my camera battery charger. I have all those things figured out. But a few problems in my mind have come up because of the change.

In April the weather is a nice sunny and warm temperature, not a hell and not a blizzard. But I am now going in August. Guess which of those two I am probably going to face while I am in Greece. Hell. Checking the weather now, 6 days in advanced the weather for the 10th-14th so far says approx. highs in 94˚F and lows in 75˚F. The highest Maine has had this summer was approx. 87˚F with humidity. Thankfully though while I read the weather I look and smile, because it says that it should not be humid AT ALL. I would much rather have a dry heat, then have a really hot humid time. Humid is not my friend nor will it ever be my friend. I am not looking forward to such heat.

Another concern that I have would be is my clothing. Because of such great heat that I will be dealing with, I don't know if I have the correct clothing to wear. Being a person from Maine I don't really know the full effects of things such as mid ninety degree (f) weather. But I also do not know the effects of a dry heat, that I really am praying to have no humidity, yet again humidity is not my friend, nor will it ever be. I don't feel as if I have enough shorts to be comfortable on the trip, and my mother keeps saying to me that I should wear the dresses that we bought. Yes I want to wear the dresses, but I don't want to wear a dress every single day that I am there. I would also like to wear shorts I am comfortable in, and not shorts that are considered "short shorts." Ah clothing, why must it always be on a chick's mind. I do not want to be a tourist, who is sweating their balls off in pictures. This does not look good. Exibit A would be to the left. And exibit B would be to the right. I do not want to look this way. I do believe I might pack one pair of pants, but that is just in case I absolutely need them, as well as sweat pants that I do believe is completely necessary.

Another concern that I have is if I am bringing too much stuff. I feel like I might be bringing a rediculious about of things, as well not bringing the things I need. I don't know what type of clothing to bring but I am going to try and look at it realistically and say "Am I really going to wear this?" I don't want to bring an excessive amount of cloths with me. I do believe that I am going to take my mother's bag instead of my own with me to Greece. This is because the bag holds a CRAPLOAD more than my bag does. BUT also because this bag has a lot more compartments then my bag. I really want to try and stay organized while I am there in Greece, because most of the time I am looking through things and wasting time to find what I need or what I want, but in this situation I want to be on top of everything that I am doing. I know for a fact I am going to get tired of not knowing where things are while I am in a different country.

I have a few more concerns but I have decided that I can't recall them at this moment, so they must not be that important. Alas, farewell.

Watching the movie star trek probably was one of the best things I could do recently. Maybe taking vitamins or something along those lines, or going to sleep earlier are better for me, but alas I believe that watching such a movie was much more worth the time and energy spent sitting there, than taking time and energy (or regaining of energy) to do things better for myself or my body. This movie was.. I'm sorry but I can't describe it as anything other than orgasmic (I try and stay away from sexual terms while I'm posting for Tiffany Shaw reads this, and I feel like she doesn't want to read such things.) the movie was absolutely amazing. After crying 4 times and then yelping when my eyes gazed upon Spock for the first time, and then smiling at the amusing banter that happened as well as "I'll be monitoring your frequency." The movie created an amazing feeling of emotions through the whole entire film. Oh don't worry I did not cry 4 times in a row, but slowly through the movie my heart was pulled out of my chest and then patched back in whenever there would be a moment of Kirk kicking ass. The movie creates not only a happy and sad roller coaster, but also allows the love for such characters as Spock, Bones, and Kirk to develop to the point in which I would try and marry every single one of the characters if they did actually exist. The movie did not have a giant love interest which actually in the long run made me happy. If there was a love interest included it would have ruined the movie and made me upset. The movie allowed the story and the characters come through instead of allowing there to be some stupid side thing like they did in the Dark Knight (WTF IS WITH THE GIRL OBSESSION IN THAT MOVIE YOU ARE F'IN BATMAN YOU HAVE NO FLAW AS SUCH!! anyway...) I am now going to buy the movie. It created the perfect balance of emotions evoked from my large heart.
Overall:
Amazing movie.
No love interest = good.
Spock = Hot
Kirk = Hot.
Dark Knight annoyed me.
Roller coaster that ends happy is good.
I'm going to buy this movie.
And my final statement:
Watch.
This.
Movie.

Ok so recently I have decided that I need to sleep more, and change my sleeping habits. I have absolutely horrible sleeping habits. I either sleep a large amount of sleep, or very little. This I admit is my fault, but I starting to get to the point that I can't help it. I have to go to sleep extremely late, or I have a very difficult time waking up at the time that I need to wake up. Probably makes no sense at all, but that is how my body has apparently been accustomed. I am extremely tired right now. Yet again, my fault. I was up rather late (I am not going to tell you the time.. I might get yelled at eventually.) and now I have the tired eyes syndrome. You don't know what that is? Let me inform you. It is when you have been deprived of sleep and you just want to go to sleep, and close your eyes because you are very groggy and your eyes are just slightly drooped. Might not happen to you, but trust me. It happens to me and it is not fun. I still want to go to sleep, and I have been awake for about 3 hours. Shouldn't morning grouchy-ness be gone by now? Gawd I love being this tired( not really).

My humor is better though, thankfully. Because at this point of exhaustion I am just giggling about anything that can be taken dirty. It might not be amusing to you. But to me, it is hilarious. Which might not be a good thing, but I don't honestly care right now. Even though small things are not that funny to the average person, with my lack of sleep the small things just make me smile and giggle.

Aside from getting sleep I have also decided that I want to change a few things in my life. I feel like an imbecile half the time because I don't know really anything about the news or international news. This information bothers me. I want to be more informed about national and international news. I believe that I'm going to start reading the sites such as BBC and New York Times. Now, I realize that this might not work, but I think I can do it! I had someone ask me about Maine republicans and they tried having a discussion with me about it. And well... honestly I could not say anything really about the whole topic, because I had no clue what recently happened.

Today it has been brought to my attention the ridiculousness of this music video.

Though some people might not realize, and are not that observant but.. That is Miley Cyrus.
I just want to point of some things that really bother me about this video.
List begins here:
WTF WHY ARE THERE CAGES ON PEOPLES HEADS?! YOU ARE NOT LADY GAGA YOU CAN NOT PULL IT OFF WITH DISNEY IN YOUR PAST!!!
... Avis Cyrus .... no more needs to be said about that one.
Bumpits? Is that what you are using, because you have a biggg ass thing on your head.
Britney Spears like?
Where the hell did the people come from?
Is she even an adult?... like of age?
Disney to Sexy is way to drastic.
Where the hell did the wings go after the first like.. minute and a half?

A few parts of the lyrics I just need to point out:
" I go through guys like money flyin’ out their hands"
"If I see my reflectiona bout my intentions
I’ll tell ya I’m not here to sell ya
Or tell ya to get to hell"
"I’m not a trick you play, I ride a different way
I’m not a mistake, I’m not a fake, It’s set in my DNA"

.... You are not fake? Wots dis you say?
cuz the lyrics just said that you, Miley, Go through guys quite fast, and that you will tell guys off? And why was swearing necessary? Disappointed.

Let us compare with her other lyrics:
"Relationship we shared
It was awesome,
But we lost it
It's not possible for me, not to care "
I see a sudden change in her feeling toward relationships?

"so hard with my girls not around me
It's definitely not a Nashville party
'Cause all I see are stilettos
I guess I never got the memo"
I dunno... from the sex appeal in the other video and talking about guys such, and this. I dunno.

Overall. Miley you need to calm down when it comes to growing up you are still underage, you are being a stupid teenage girl. Exibit A: ----- >
Now.. I understand that you are a teenager, but I don't understand how you can think that taking such pictures of one self is going to help your career. I never taken pictures in such a manner, I had self respect. So why would you ever do that?!

I don't understand your mind, I don't like your singing, but that is just my personal opinion. Nothing against you, but I am getting tired of Miley Cyrus in the news for being riskay and doing stupid things. Do sexy videos in a bit, but don't go from one extreme to the other!!! Work your way there slowly. You don't wanna do a Britney, and so far.. that is were you are headed.

So.. tonight I am being linked a large amount of music videos from different countries, which I'm like cool! I have no idea what they are saying.. but really overall I have decided that these music videos are really amusing, and really funny... and odd. So I was interested and the music was really kinda cool and there was one that was the lyrics talking about just dancing. And I was happy when I heard that the lyrics were not perverted.

But then I got to this one music video.

And honestly, I was not sitting here watching most of the music videos.. some I was, some I was not. But I just happened to switch to the tab in which this music video was playing on, and I saw a bunch of topless guys dancing.. and I was slightly confused and had to start the music video over again. This music video probably is one of the most confusing things I have ever watched. And I haven't even watched the full thing. I have watched parts of it, but so far the first shot of the music video is just of a girl's ass and then it is this guy who really is trying WAY too hard to be gangsta dancing with a girl, no big deal... I decide it is meh but I listen to the music anyway..

Ok... so I just watched it over. I'm watching this.. and hes dancing with the girl, but then he pushes the girl away to dance with a guy. Which I don't really care, but now that I think about it the lyrics sound like "shake your bootay man" in my mind... and I mean. Gay or not, it doesn't bother me.. but I think the people linking this to me should have at least wanted me of the amount of hip thrusting that this video has.. because I just stopped to look and this time I saw a "gym" scene with a yoga class of all guys thrusting their lower regions. Yet again.. I have no problem with this, but normally here in the US the music videos don't have men thrusting upon men... so it just seemed odd to me how... blatant the music video was. I still would like a warning next time.

Oh! Amusing! I said amusing! I mean.. the other music videos were kinda cool! they made me smile with some of the bright wigs I saw and such. yea.. I'm too distracted by the fact that they didn't warn me of the hip thrusting.. See ya.

So I'm really bored, I'm not tired even though it is currently 4:23 AM. But.. I'm skyping, with another sleep deprived person and we are discussing a lot of really interesting things.

One interesting topic would have to be dreams. He was telling me about how he hates when you have lucid dreams while you are sick, because he took most of the pillows in the house that were not being used. And in his dream apparently the pillows were running a election to which one should be under his head.. and he apparently switched pillows throughout this dream.

Which reminds me of one dream.. that really kinda scarred me in my childhood. There was a witch who had a giant pot, and for some reason everyone I knew was in a line with their animals, and they were putting their animals in the pot.. and my parents were in the line, I was really upset because I didn't want to put my dog Molly in the pot.

I also remember another dream that for some reason my old house had a faucet on the back, and for some reason I turned it and I started to flood the Earth with a large amount of water, and I wanted to save everyone.. but I couldn't turn the faucet the right way to turn it off, I kept turning it the other way.

Another interesting thing that I learned about would be cars, I learned what the difference between a V8, and a W8 engine types, which I learned that the letter is the set up of the pistons, and the number is the amount of pistons that there are. As well as a car should be a light car to be fast, and well.. a spoiler adds traction, and "creates down force" on the car so that the car's rear end won't go up to the sky. And another thing is, engins are measured liters because it is the amount of displacement in the cylinders.

I'm not that tired, but I might go to bed soon, I don't know yet.. But I thought dreams were an interesting topic. I would go more in depth, but I am currently tired.

Why are we the way we are today? Why do we act the way we act today? When we think of how we act and how we are today we are formed by the people around us. We really are not ourselves most of the time because we form to the way other people want us to be. We change who we are so that we are accepted by society, even though we tell everyone to be themselves and encourage people to be an individual. Isn't this a bit contradictory? We change to be like everyone else because that is what society wants us to be, and yet they encourage people to be different? If a person tries to be what society wants, and what they want to be, then it is going to be very hard for them, and feat if they succeed.

I don't feel like myself most of the time, sad to say. But honestly, I try to be liked by people more than I am myself, which is hard, because the people who know the true me, and have spent enough time with me encourage me to stop trying, and just be myself. But honestly it is a lot harder then one might think to.. stop being what one might think society wants people to be.

So overall, I need to be more myself, and I need to stop trying to be someone different, because other people's opinions do not matter, just the opinion I have of myself. Also, last thought: Society is f'n weird.

Ok Ok, I know I have been behind on posting on my blog... ok I will admit it, I gave you all the hope that these blog posts were going to end.. but no... sorry they are not. I just have.. slacked.
A lot.
Maybe even a bit more then a lot.
Anywayy! lets just go along like you have all forgiven me, and there is nothing wrong with me not posting for like.. a long long time.

I'm gonna stop reminding you of that.
Anyway what should I write about? If you can't tell right now I'm writing down my complete thoughts. Though this might be slightly entertaining to you.. I'm gonna assume its not and ponder what I should write about for a moment, and give myself some time to press the enter button a few times.





I just realized... even though I might make some of you smile and maybe even chuckle a bit. My friend Spencer, is not going to laugh over any of this.. except for maybe this comment. Anyway back to my thoughts!







So I just looked up at the television, and it was showing me some prison thing with celebritys in it.. And I thought to myself 'I wonder what the people in jail say when celebritys arrive there... are they awe struck... or do they go I TOTALLY MET PARIS HILTON! when they get out of jail'
I mean honestly, if you think about it.. are they the type of people who are like.. hey cool its Paris Hilton, or are they the type of person who is like.. Paris! Paris!!! Can I get your autograph!? OR are they the type of person who gets out of jail and is like "DUDE! I totally met paris hilton!" and then asked where they are like.. "Ummm.... in jail?" How could they honestly pull that off.



More thinking..




Soup is delicious. Honestly.. i love soup. I had my friend critizise me for eating soup.. they told me its like... drinking a sandwich.. which now that I think about it would be splended.

Now my ranting is done. I might give you another blog post later on about how often I see satire. I am watching tv and finding it all so amusing..
Farewell non-existant readers. Talk to you later.