A Moment of Grace

So.. tonight I am being linked a large amount of music videos from different countries, which I'm like cool! I have no idea what they are saying.. but really overall I have decided that these music videos are really amusing, and really funny... and odd. So I was interested and the music was really kinda cool and there was one that was the lyrics talking about just dancing. And I was happy when I heard that the lyrics were not perverted.

But then I got to this one music video.

And honestly, I was not sitting here watching most of the music videos.. some I was, some I was not. But I just happened to switch to the tab in which this music video was playing on, and I saw a bunch of topless guys dancing.. and I was slightly confused and had to start the music video over again. This music video probably is one of the most confusing things I have ever watched. And I haven't even watched the full thing. I have watched parts of it, but so far the first shot of the music video is just of a girl's ass and then it is this guy who really is trying WAY too hard to be gangsta dancing with a girl, no big deal... I decide it is meh but I listen to the music anyway..

Ok... so I just watched it over. I'm watching this.. and hes dancing with the girl, but then he pushes the girl away to dance with a guy. Which I don't really care, but now that I think about it the lyrics sound like "shake your bootay man" in my mind... and I mean. Gay or not, it doesn't bother me.. but I think the people linking this to me should have at least wanted me of the amount of hip thrusting that this video has.. because I just stopped to look and this time I saw a "gym" scene with a yoga class of all guys thrusting their lower regions. Yet again.. I have no problem with this, but normally here in the US the music videos don't have men thrusting upon men... so it just seemed odd to me how... blatant the music video was. I still would like a warning next time.

Oh! Amusing! I said amusing! I mean.. the other music videos were kinda cool! they made me smile with some of the bright wigs I saw and such. yea.. I'm too distracted by the fact that they didn't warn me of the hip thrusting.. See ya.

So I'm really bored, I'm not tired even though it is currently 4:23 AM. But.. I'm skyping, with another sleep deprived person and we are discussing a lot of really interesting things.

One interesting topic would have to be dreams. He was telling me about how he hates when you have lucid dreams while you are sick, because he took most of the pillows in the house that were not being used. And in his dream apparently the pillows were running a election to which one should be under his head.. and he apparently switched pillows throughout this dream.

Which reminds me of one dream.. that really kinda scarred me in my childhood. There was a witch who had a giant pot, and for some reason everyone I knew was in a line with their animals, and they were putting their animals in the pot.. and my parents were in the line, I was really upset because I didn't want to put my dog Molly in the pot.

I also remember another dream that for some reason my old house had a faucet on the back, and for some reason I turned it and I started to flood the Earth with a large amount of water, and I wanted to save everyone.. but I couldn't turn the faucet the right way to turn it off, I kept turning it the other way.

Another interesting thing that I learned about would be cars, I learned what the difference between a V8, and a W8 engine types, which I learned that the letter is the set up of the pistons, and the number is the amount of pistons that there are. As well as a car should be a light car to be fast, and well.. a spoiler adds traction, and "creates down force" on the car so that the car's rear end won't go up to the sky. And another thing is, engins are measured liters because it is the amount of displacement in the cylinders.

I'm not that tired, but I might go to bed soon, I don't know yet.. But I thought dreams were an interesting topic. I would go more in depth, but I am currently tired.

Why are we the way we are today? Why do we act the way we act today? When we think of how we act and how we are today we are formed by the people around us. We really are not ourselves most of the time because we form to the way other people want us to be. We change who we are so that we are accepted by society, even though we tell everyone to be themselves and encourage people to be an individual. Isn't this a bit contradictory? We change to be like everyone else because that is what society wants us to be, and yet they encourage people to be different? If a person tries to be what society wants, and what they want to be, then it is going to be very hard for them, and feat if they succeed.

I don't feel like myself most of the time, sad to say. But honestly, I try to be liked by people more than I am myself, which is hard, because the people who know the true me, and have spent enough time with me encourage me to stop trying, and just be myself. But honestly it is a lot harder then one might think to.. stop being what one might think society wants people to be.

So overall, I need to be more myself, and I need to stop trying to be someone different, because other people's opinions do not matter, just the opinion I have of myself. Also, last thought: Society is f'n weird.

Ok Ok, I know I have been behind on posting on my blog... ok I will admit it, I gave you all the hope that these blog posts were going to end.. but no... sorry they are not. I just have.. slacked.
A lot.
Maybe even a bit more then a lot.
Anywayy! lets just go along like you have all forgiven me, and there is nothing wrong with me not posting for like.. a long long time.

I'm gonna stop reminding you of that.
Anyway what should I write about? If you can't tell right now I'm writing down my complete thoughts. Though this might be slightly entertaining to you.. I'm gonna assume its not and ponder what I should write about for a moment, and give myself some time to press the enter button a few times.





I just realized... even though I might make some of you smile and maybe even chuckle a bit. My friend Spencer, is not going to laugh over any of this.. except for maybe this comment. Anyway back to my thoughts!







So I just looked up at the television, and it was showing me some prison thing with celebritys in it.. And I thought to myself 'I wonder what the people in jail say when celebritys arrive there... are they awe struck... or do they go I TOTALLY MET PARIS HILTON! when they get out of jail'
I mean honestly, if you think about it.. are they the type of people who are like.. hey cool its Paris Hilton, or are they the type of person who is like.. Paris! Paris!!! Can I get your autograph!? OR are they the type of person who gets out of jail and is like "DUDE! I totally met paris hilton!" and then asked where they are like.. "Ummm.... in jail?" How could they honestly pull that off.



More thinking..




Soup is delicious. Honestly.. i love soup. I had my friend critizise me for eating soup.. they told me its like... drinking a sandwich.. which now that I think about it would be splended.

Now my ranting is done. I might give you another blog post later on about how often I see satire. I am watching tv and finding it all so amusing..
Farewell non-existant readers. Talk to you later.

Ok, so lately I just have yet again been down on myself. And yes I know I bitch a lot of pointless stuff. but I wanted to display some of my photography that i have done recently, to kinda.. Feel less like a failure.

Here are some of my best pictures taken, Yay photography!



























































Check out more of my photography at www.flickr.com/gracelemieux

All my life, I have been given the whole " your too smart", " your really smart" and all that stuff when it comes to school. I honestly don't try half the time, because well to put it blunt. I am bored. Sitting in math class I'm bored, and its not because I just don't want to listen, it is because I just.. am really bored. It is all way too easy for me. My problem is I make small mistakes, which make problems. But aside from those small mistakes, I am bored. I don't do things when I am bored. Honestly I am WAY too ADD for that. I just.. try and focus, but lets be honest, it does not work half the time. I need to learn to focus, and that is my problem. I'm tired of hearing the your too smart talk, and I'm tired of the... why arn't you doing this? I don't know, I honestly don't know why I'm not doing it. I think its because I CANT FOCUS! And its a problem!

Sorry for not updating in so long, I know its rediculious. But I just have been off about a lot of things. I'm slightly stressed out, and I don't know the complete reason why. I just wish I could do a lot more, then what I am actually doing. But its rather hard for me to do that. I just wish I could do so many things, and I envision so many things. But for some reason I just.. can't do it. its getting me all very down and hard on myself, which isn't fun. I'm just in a bad mood plainly. I feel like I'm failing and behind in well.. life. and I seem to be getting alot of crap from people. And I don't feel like I did anything to diserve it.

Overall I'm very...... blah. Not sleeping well and everything. can't seem to fall asleep.


Ok I'm back! Sorry.. I wrote that when I was, well obviously down. I have lately been very up and down with my emotions, and yes.. I am a girl... and no its not because of THAT reason. Its just.. I am thinking probably more then I really should. I'm better currently. I'm getting more on track of things, and it makes me feel a lot better about things. I currently have a soap opera that I need a title for. It is about high school drama, and soap opera stuff, and no.. sadly no brain transplants.... Shaw wouldn't allow it. Sadly. Anyway, if you have any ideas, tell me and I will take them into consideration! Sorry for the lack of posts, I will definately give you more later, I will try and have philisophical conversations with Spencer. Talk to you all later non existant readers.. except that one that loves me!